toddwertz

If I found out I only had two weeks left to live, I would definitely not live with regrets. For one, regrets are a waste of time. There is nothing that can be done at present, other than to learn, so why bother feeling negative about which you cannot control? Instead, I would focus my energy on that which I am grateful for. I would tell my family and my boyfriend my limited time left. I would let them cry, but not cry myself. Life is for living, and I will do so until I can no longer. I would marry my boyfriend, for he already is aware he is my future. I would spend all of my time with my (new) husband, and family. Letting them know how much I love them is all I really want. I don’t need to jump out of a plane, or travel to other countries to feel like my life is full of quality. That is all shallow, and nobody will benefit from my life if I spend it selfishly. I want others to benefit from my life.

If I could time travel I’d go into the future to see if my efforts on earth paid off. I’d genuinely hope that 100 years into the future my actions now would still be helping millions of people all over the world. I’d hope that my life inspired millions of others to live their best lives and create a better world. I’d look at all the people I helped and see them help others, and that would be the most rewarding experience ever. I’d look at the end of humanity and smile at the beauty of the world.

If I could comfort anyone from the past it would likely be myself. I’d tell myself that 99.9 percent of what I got caught up worrying about would never happen. I’d tell myself that despite life being dark at times it always ends up OK. I’d tell myself that despite being heart broken that my heart would once again thrive. I’d tell myself to keep my head up when I felt like giving up. Comforting myself would help me through the times in which I felt there was no one there for me.

I have always loved words and Scrabble allowed me to indulge in my passion.  I played Scrabble with whomever I could get to play with me.  My mother would indulge me, some of my school friends played with me, too.  I did not always win, but I loved the challenge of trying to maximize the points I could earn with my seven letter tiles.  Eventually one of my cousins because my favorite Scrabble opponent.  He lived across the country and we did not get to see each other often.  Whenever we did, however, I would wait with anxious anticipation to see whether he would suggest that we take out the Scrabble board.  He was a number of years older than I was so I was always pleased when he would seem as anxious to play as I did.  Unfortunately, my cousin is no longer around to play with, but I think of him whenever I find myself at a Scrabble board.

I would not say that there is any one person in my life that has been a great influence, but rather many.  Those who help and those who hurt, have been the key influencers in my life.  I have watched and I have learned from these people. I see the helpers doing good, and when they do good they feel good. They make others feel good even if they don’t directly influence their lives.  When the helpers do good, they receive good back into their lives.  The opposite is true for the hurters.  I see people hurting others: theft & deception running rampant in so many lives.  I see that they hurt others, and in turn they receive a lot of pain and suffering in their lives. In both these cases, which came first “the chicken or the egg.” We have a choice to make, are we going to help or are we going to hurt.

Current unrest aside, the place that I would like to visit would be Egypt.  I would love to be able to spend time in the Mediterranean, take a cruise along the Nile, visit the pyramids, and all the sites Egypt has to offer.  I would like to take my entire family, as I think Egypt is such a fascinating place with wonderful history.  This is a place where anyone who can, should go sometime in their life.  It is on my family’s “to-do” list, so hopefully, the unrest that is currently plaguing the nation will soon be settled, so that we can get to planning our Egyptian vacation.